So my blog really died but lately God has sorta prompted me to get it going again. I thought I’d better listen to Him so I’m going to try and make this a bit more regular. Ok lets get into it…
I’m so guilty of this (selfish thinking), at times I think the world revolves around me or should. This train of thinking all started from something really small, something looking back make me think ‘how retarded of me’. So here is the stiuation. I thought being so important I didn’t need to pick up the house phone, and the less important people in the house would. In the end it resulted in an arguement because the phone rang out. The reasoning aside and who was at fault God spoke to me saying ‘What makes me so important that I am number one?’ I didn’t pick up the phone because I thought “I” was too busy, “I” was doing something more important or ”I” wasn’t the closest, it was all cos I thought I was number one and didn’t need to ‘lesser’ tasks. When it came down to it getting up and getting the phone would have taken me 1min max compared to the 10min arguement about who was at fault. Pretty small right?
Well, during my shower think (shower think = thinking in the shower, its actually really good to just sit there for an extended period of time thinking while letting the water run over you, this is really good in winter when you sit under the hot water late at night… slight tangent but you should try it)… ok during my shower think I thought about times in my life when I was a selfish thinker. Most if not all of the times when I messed up real good it came down to my selfish thinking. I thank God for them cos I did grow up (I’ll blog about me growing up another time… if anyone makes a comment about this I’m so going to stab you) and mature heaps. However, there is one bad side affect about thinking selfish, its that its at the expense of someone else and most (not all) of the time its someone whom we love/care deeply about.
I don’t know about you but it really makes me think each time I do something now the implications of my selfish thinking. When we think selfishly we take something from them that we can’t return or fix up. It has really made me think that when I have the selfish mentality how much others around me really do lose.
I pray I won’t have selfish thinking.
